Whirlwind week

Well....Sunday night, I find out that Dee is on a flight roster with another unit to leave on March 30th! All along, we've been mentally preparing for April 23rd. So at first I was upset, then after praying and with the help of a few friends, realized, the sooner he goes, the sooner he gets back. I tried to see the silver lining. The waiting is the hardest part I think. So I finally got myself prepared for March 30th, and was actually looking forward to it coming sooner. THEN yesterday, Dee calls. He's found out that now his name has been taken off the flight roster for the other unit and he is now flying out with his unit in April. UGH! So I had to switch my thinking again. It's truly an emotional roller coaster. What I've decided is this.............I am saying that as of Monday, Dee is gone. I won't see him anymore. No weekends, no time together. I'm not telling the girls that he'll be home on the weekends anymore. THEN I told Dee that when he is pulling out of the base, headed home, to call me and then we'll believe it. If I don't expect anything from the Army, then they can't disappoint us. This is a way to see things in a positive way, keep Dee from being stressed about telling me, and keep the girls from the emotional roller coaster. Changes come quickly in the Army. To them, it's just paperwork....to me...it's my heart.
God is preparing me for this and I feel stronger each day. Each day I get between now and April 23rd will just be a precious gift. He is supposed to come home on the weekends, but like I said, I'm not expecting it.

That said, he is supposed to leave at 2 pm today headed home for a 4 day weekend. (Not holding my breath) It would be nice to be able to get some paperwork done that needs to be done before he leaves.

Just keep his unit in your prayers as they prepare for deployment. They are having briefings, qualifying, etc. I know it's difficult for them to be away from home too. At least this time, they have real beds to sleep in and better food. Louisiana was tough. Dee's only word was "tolerable".