A Long Night

The election in Afghanistan is quickly approaching, but not quickly enough. I just want it over. The Taliban is determined to use any tactics they can to scare the peopld so they won't come out and vote. Since Saturday, a suicide bomber blew up a car in a major city, killing 7 and injuring almost 100. Some were children selling gum to soldiers. Then just two days later, missiles were fired in to the city. THEN another Suicide bomber.
Then tonight, through other sources, the Army wives received word that an IED exploded outside the base and killed one soldier. No names given. So we are all waiting to hear from our husbands and now Dee is 45 mins late calling me. I am praying he is late because he is so busy working due to the violence; doing his job. But I don't know that until I hear from him.
How do you have faith so strong as to not worry? I try. I worry, cry a little, then try and toughen up and pray and pray and pray, then read bible verses and my book "Faith Deployed". God is my strength and as I sit here trying to occupy my mind, I know HE is in control and I take comfort that HE already knew what would happen before it ever happened. But this is still my husband and I am still human. The "Not knowing" is the hardest part.

These next few days are going to be long and sleepless for sure. I can't imagine what our soldiers go through every day. They are trained to do their jobs and go in to action when called. BUT are they afraid? Do they have fear? I'm sure, but in a different way.

Tonight, as I heard the report about the soldier, I started crying and praying outloud, obviously too loud. My oldest woke up and came in here and gave me a big hug. I try hard to shield them from the daily news, the daily worries of where the bombs are..........but tonight, I didn't do so well. But I needed that hug and she is such a mature young lady, she'll be fine. This year is going to make us all stronger. We'll all learn more how to depend on each other, but also how to stand strong in the face of adversity. AND most importantly, stand strong in our faith.

Please pray with me as this week unfolds.