Time has come

Well, today we said goodbye to Dee. He is headed to Camp Atterbury in Indiana. We are praying for a 4 day leave in June. We'll see. This weekend has been tough. We came home Saturday night from our mini vacation and the tears started then. I really felt like I was having a nervous breakdown, couldn't stop crying, couldn't catch my breath. Felt like I was going crazy. We didn't go to church because I was such a mess. Today, I met First Sgt's wife, Dianne. This is their 4th deployment. I figured she must have the strength of steel. But after talking to her, she's had the same kind of weekend. She says it doesn't get any better. We all cried at the base. We told Dee goodbye, prayed and hugged until we couldn't anymore. The girls were really sad. Jolie asked Dee to quit the Army so he wouldn't have to go. She doesn't understand.
Then we had to come straight to CRCT testing for Jessie. I am praying she can concentrate. Right now, I am much better than I was. Feels like a regular Monday when he leaves for Ft. Stewart. When the weekend rolls around and he isn't coming home, reality will set in.

Thank to all the friends that have been praying for us. Dee and I will have been married 14 years this May. We've never been apart more than 2 wks, until he went to Louisiana with the ARMY recently, for 3 wks. It was miserable. I guess we'll figure it out as we go.

It was difficult to watch him pack so much stuff, knowing he wouldn't be back holding me in our bed for a very long time. I didn't sleep last night so when Jessie is done, and we are finished with Conyers Kids, off to bed early tonight.

I am very thankful that my time to endure a war is now, not during previous wars, such as Vietnam. Those wives would go weeks without ever hearing from their husbands. They didn't have cell phones or internet. For that, I am thankful.

God has blessed me with a wonderful husband and I guess thats what makes it so difficult. I feel like I've lost my best friend and my insides feel empty. But God is my strength and I will lean on him. On the difficult days, I will let you pray for me, when I can seem to even pray for myself.